Forgiveness

I would give everything I own

Give up my Life, My heart my Home

Just to Have you

How many times have you felt this way  for someone special  in your life?  Wanting to let everything go, give everything away, just to see a smile on that one special person. All the  times you have spent, just knowing that your doing a particular action for your special one is going to definitely make a smile appear on their beautiful countenance, and  when you see that smile, you wish that you could live in the moment forever, as that smile is so  perfect for you, that you  feel that  there is nothing else you would want in life.

This person could be anyone, It could be your friend, your lover, your partner,  family, or just someone you have no formal relationship with, but feel connected to in a way that you feel complete when you are with them,  SOULMATES is what you would generally call them.

So there you are, living your life, looking for ways to bring a smile on the face of that special someone you have,  and something  happens,  a misunderstanding,  an incident, something they do that hurts you deeply,. It hurts so bad that you wish to end all association with the person who caused you that kind of hurt. You are hurt and for a long long time, are angry at the fact, that this someone for who you were willing to fight against the world,  stand by them through thick and thin, did this to hurt you.  It is sad, but sometimes, moving on with the rest of your life starts with goodbye.

When you do walk out of someone’s life,  it is because of all the miserable things that happened,  but in hindsight, you only remember the best of the times that you had. You spend  a shit load of time thinking of all the wonderful times you have spent with said person, and how it made you happy then,  you spend time crying about the fact that the wonderful times you had, all the smiles and the satisfaction of seeing that smile on that special person’s face are now all over, all that is left is the emptiness of the space that person occupied.  The person becomes a forgotten face,  but the feeling always remains.

The very person who did this to you, is the one you find hardest to forgive, the hardest to let go, but it is this person you need to let go of. Forgiveness means  letting go, It has nothing to do with condoning behaviour, it is just letting go. We do not have to know how to forgive. All we need is to be willing to forgive, the Universe will take care of the hows.

I have tried hard to do this and am still working at  truly forgiving the people who have done this to me in life, I hope to some day be able to truly forgive and let go, but until then, I continue to learn…